Sunday, October 27, 2013

Day 27:Your Nearness

DD#2 and I stayed home from church today, 
both of us battling fall sinus headaches that simply won't quit.
Secretly I was glad--because I am battling a heartache that simply won't quit, either.
I need courage--
the courage to be excited about the future.
My best friend and my husband were talking of these things last night, 
and I heard in their voices a growing excitement about what God was doing,
 their turmoil tempered by a secret joy,
 an anticipation of the goodness of God.
With my head on the pillow last night, I thought--
I am not excited for the new. 
 I am grieving the old.
So this morning, DD#2 and I  talked,
 and I probably gave a teen too much information.
In the end, it was a good conversation.
She told me I was brave.
I will do a lot of hard things for my child to see me be brave.
So I will have courage.
The courage to be, one day, excited about the future
 because the future is Jesus.
At the end of things, He's what I want--
and I want the courage to really mean it.
Right now, I want to know He's near--
that His nearness is my good.
Not clever solutions or easy decisions.
His nearness.

Psalm 73:28

But as for me, the nearness of God is my good;
I have made the Lord God myrefuge,
That I may tell of all Your works.


  1. Don't know what you're facing, but my thoughts and prayers are with you Ginger!

  2. Oh yes the courage to be brave the future is Jesus and I encourage you to lot be afraid. Fear is the enemy!

    Prayers dear friend. Feel better too!