I just realized that today is the last day to submit an entry for a scholarship to attend She Speaks.
Speaking (and breathing, if you read yesterday’s post) is close to my heart today, because I am speaking at my church tonight.
I didn’t start out to be a speaker.
I was just a Sunday School teacher who loved words and the Word.
About six years ago, I realized something.
I loved God, but I didn’t really trust Him.
He prompted me to pray a dangerous prayer,
one I will never regret praying, though it has taken me on the wild ride of my life.
I asked, “Lord, will You teach me to trust You?”
I imagine Him smiling….
He isn’t a tame Lion.
What has followed has twisted and turned and hurt.
Yet, today I can say
I trust Him.
I trust Him.
One day, a few years ago, a friend sat at my kitchen table and asked me if I ever wanted to write a book.
“No,” I hesitated, “I don’t think so…but, I don’t know, I might want to speak.”
She grabbed my hand.
“When it comes, and it will come, don’t pull back from it.”
A few months later, I stood in front of a sweet group of young moms and told a story on myself that I never wanted to tell.
Then I watched Him take my most spectacular failures
and bring Himself glory.
This post is not particularly eloquent.
Sometimes I am not.
Tonight He wants me to speak about some things that are so new,
that I will need tissues
for more than just my allergies.
I dread it-
and I am eager for it-
all at the same time
because I trust Him,
and I want to see His glory.
Be blessed today,